Friday, January 27, 2006

heya pebbles! seems like this blog has been a bit short of our posts and thoughts, besides Vincent's. haha.

life for me has been good. but i've been a little troubled recently.

i've kinda stopped reading and doing my Bible Study this week. been really ill-disciplined as i try to get myself to wake up early daily, sleep early as well, get myself trained up and fit before going to work. but no, i've yet to start on that. yeah. i thank God for this job. no doubt i have a good and decent pay and alright working hours - my friends all claim that my job's the best among all of our's. but this job is also preparing me for a lot more to come. like for example, army life and working life.
my colleagues are all non-believers. they swear and curse. vulgarities are heard daily but lesser when one's on an off-day. dirty talk, money talk, worries about money and materialism. i don't argue back or try to reason with them, mainly one guy. i will most likely lose and get lost in the argument or reasoning. it's tough, this job. not the job scope. i don't think the job scope covered working with colleagues you didn't expect. handling materialism, money, betting and gambling, dirty, girl (talking about girls) - talks daily is pretty tough for me. when i ignore them or disagree, i feel the persecutional sense. sometimes persecution does not start only from non-believers looking down and degrading you. my colleagues don't. they like me and they know about my faith. but it's difficult when you're in the among 5 guys or 4 guys and a girl arguing or commenting about money, life, dirty talk. ek! as i type my web page just diverted to an adult website. sigh. that's the kinda persecution or self-persecution i'm talking about. but i'll be strong, and living a life of a Christian despite the difficult times. thank God that i have Him to rely on, thank God that we all have Him to rely on. because at difficult times, many do not have any one to turn to. to have that strength to stay strong. but God is there for us. let us trust Him. and i thank God for these experiences and "training". haha. i actually move big boxes daily. u know, big luggage bags in boxes can get heavy. and it's kinda an army pre-training too. haha. anyways, do visit me when you all have time yeah? =)) or my sis at raffles hotel. it would be kinda nice. i stood by the window looking for familiar people in school uni. but no...haha. anyways, stay strong pebbles! and continue to pray for each and everyone of us =) and a happy chinese new year. =)

-timo

11:53 PM
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